February Recap...

So last month I talked about how January had been even more horrific than the horrors that had come before but we still have to live our lives and then rolled into the recap. Today before I roll into the recap I have to at least mention that apparently we are at war with Iran now. Did massive strikes overnight. The rational Trump just posted was that they interfered in the 2020 and 2024 elections and that's why. So... yeah. I guess the name for this operation will be the Epstein Coverup Midterm Takeover Offensive.

Ugh.

So yeah...the horrors they expand and yet... we live our lives.

How did February go for me in my little circle of goals?

Reading: At the end of last month I was behind on my goals. Then I realized that I had actually set them higher than I had wanted to so I lowered the number and now I'm behind by three books. I only made it through three books in February. But one was nonfiction and I owned one so I'm still saying it was a goodish month. Hoping to catch up a little more while we are on vacation next week. My problem is I'm having a hard time focusing like I used to. See above horrors expanding...

Writing: This will be the 20th blog this month, with 5 of those being fiction plus 2 to Dana. The 5 fiction instead of four was to work ahead for next week when I'll be gone. So yes, that means after today you get a break from hearing from me for at least a week. It's a vacation for everyone! But as far as goals go, hit it. Boom.

Workout/weight: I gained 15.2 of muscle last month. BOOM! I'm a beast! Okay, we switched scales to one that does a more accurate body composition measurement but still...it was nice to see that change in a positive direction. It actually bumped me over a goal of pounds of muscle I had been working toward and next month I'll have to set a new one there.

I also lost 2 pounds of overall weight, that didn't shift with the scale change, that was just the slow steady loss that I've been working on. That's my goal right now, just a small half pound a week loss. I was going to blow up my routine and eating next month and try something totally new but with the week of vacation that would be a lot of variables at once and I wouldn't really know what was or wasn't working so I'm going to stick with what I've been doing and just get back to it after the week off.

Language/Masterclass: Still doing both. I did a Masterclass on habit building and one on sleep. Both of them led by people whose work I was already familiar with and just did them as sort of refresher on things I already do. Interesting, but not super challenging. I have a storytelling one by LeVar Burton on tap for next month that I'm really looking forward to.

Overall for me February was a challenge. I told Brent that if I medicated for my ADD it felt like I had forgotten to take my medication. Just really scattered, hard to focus on anything, sleep was a challenge. I kept thinking about the things that I would for sure get done and then the next day think oh those things are still on the list and not done. Like I mentioned, we are on vacation next week and it's a free form vacation for the most part so I'm hoping it's a really good recharge refocus time. I have two activities scheduled and we have three dinner reservations and that's it. The rest of the time is just what do we feel like doing right now time. I imagine a lot of it will be I feel like sitting and watching the ocean and letting go of all of the stress about things I cannot control that I can.

I've mentioned before that the ocean makes me feel very small and also very much connected to everything. I imagine it's like what astronauts feel when they are in the vastness of space. Just tiny as an individual and yet also completely a part of something so massive and always growing. The ocean is my space. I am looking forward to being in the water, being near the water, being on top of the water, watching and listening to the whales, breathing with the rhythm of the tides going in and out. And the lilikoi foam at Monkeypod.

So that's a wrap on February.
Take care of yourself.
Do what you can to be healthy.
Move more and eat good food.
Fuck ICE.
Prosecute murderers.
Prosecute pedophiles.
Primary everybody.

And remember that I love you.