rambling Softly This morning I had my MRI. The first thing they do is give you an outfit to wear. A lot of clothing has metal in it, rivets in jeans, underwire in bras, metallic threads in other clothes, so to be safe you have to change clothes. But it was not
rambling Get Uncomfortable... Today I did an uphill run. I hate running uphill. It's not fun. It's hard. My ankle ends up just angry and sore by the end. It's not a thing I will generally choose to do. But today I did an uphill run. Doctor&
fiction Dreams... I dreamt of you last night. It wasn't anything special. Nothing unusual, more accurately. We were kids. I think it was supposed to be the time we set up the lemonade stand. Do you remember that? When we realized that most kids weren't allowed to walk
rambling Failing... You all know how much I hate to fail. I really hate it. I love a gold star. I love goals. I love stretch goals. I love to pretend they are the patriarchy and smash them all. But right now I'm failing hard. And I hate it. I&
rambling Alternative History... If you were or are a comic book reader you're familiar with the whole multiverse thing. Alternative timelines in different worlds that are all changed, sometimes subtle changes, sometimes drastic ones because different decisions were made. It's a storytelling tool they use to try and inject
rambling Better or Worse One of the things that would probably be most shocking to anyone not living in the United States right now is how very uniformed a lot of the people living here are about what is happening. Tens of millions of people didn't even vote in the last election.
rambling True Romance... Okay if you haven't read the post I sent out just before this one, you will want to read it first. So start with The Affair and then come back to this. That piece was one of my fiction exchange pieces with Dana. I wrote it last October
fiction The Affair... The affair started when I was 35 years old. I can tell you all of the reasons why it happened. I was feeling unappreciated at home. I was feeling unattractive in a body that had changed from giving birth multiple times. I was lonely in a house full of people.
fiction They Say... They say that Pandora was too curious and couldn’t do as Zeus told her and that’s why she opened the box unleashing all the world’s evils. They say that Eve was fooled by the serpent and that’s why she disobeyed God and ate the apple. They
rambling And Dusted... I mentioned the ad agency yesterday. I worked for them two times. The first as a bookkeeper and then we moved to Colorado Springs for a few years. When we moved back they rehired me as an account executive. I'm one of those employees that gets personally attached
rambling Money... Back in the way before times, before I was retired, before I was a stay at home mom whose kid didn't, before I was a massage therapist, before I was an advertising account executive, before all of that I was a bookkeeper. And one of the things I
rambling Honesty... I haven't written in a couple of days and I have like three ideas for blogs but instead I'm going to write a fairly short one to give you an honesty update. I feel very down today. Like energy is tanked. No motivation. Absolutely no desire
rambling Are You Real? I've written before about how frustrating it is to be someone who writes when you cannot reach someone through words. When someone is grieving and you cannot comfort them no matter what you say. When you know someone is about to make a terrible decision but there is
fiction The Not Bright Knight 2... The Not Bright Knight Part One It was a full three-day journey to get to the thicket of thorns. Though he could smell the roses on day two. That’s how many roses there were. How thickly they had grown around the old castle. At the end of day two
fiction The Not Bright Knight... Everyone said he wasn’t very smart. Well not everyone, his mother always said that it wasn’t that he wasn’t smart, it was that he saw the world differently. But honestly, that was probably just a mother’s way of saying he wasn’t very smart. But he
rambling Give Me a Break... It's been a whirlwind of shit the past three weeks. It's by design. They planned it that way. To overwhelm the systems. To flood the zone with shit. To keep throwing so much stuff at everyone that there is no way to keep up. To ignore
rambling Bully for You... It's a sad truth that often a child's first bully is their parent. Sometimes the parent thinks they are doing the right thing. Toughening up the kid so they won't have as many vulnerabilities in the real world. Or trying to fix the kid
rambling Spare Me... Just realized that would be a great title for a short story, might be a Spare Me (Fiction) sometime... ANYWAY... I'm reading a few newsletters right now. A variety pack of liberal voices to make me feel better about the world. Action items, news recaps, think pieces, fluffy
rambling Timing... If I had heard Personal Jesus before People are People I think I would have been a Depeche Mode fan in high school. As it was I wrote them off as Depressed Mode and barely tolerated them. As a weird aside, Just Can't Get Enough is one of
rambling Infection... In October of 2001 I was dying. I mean, okay, technically we are all always dying. But my death was a lot closer than I realized. I was actively dying. I've written about it before. I was going in to the grocery store and put my hand directly
rambling January Recap Normally I would write this on the last day of the month but I think I'm going to be too busy to write tomorrow so today it is. If it ends up I have time tomorrow then maybe I'll write some fiction, or work on the
fiction Time After Time... She crept closer to the crazy man on the corner. He was in the middle of a fiery speech. Not a lot of people were listening. Just a small handful. But they were listening closely. She could see reflected in their eyes what was to come. The power he would
rambling Present Tense... Sunday morning we were going to get up and go out to breakfast then go to the grocery store. I've talked before about how much I hate going to the grocery store. And, yes, I know hate is such a strong word. I hate it. And I hate
rambling Check Lists... When Brent was on sabbatical he wanted to help take care of the house so I wasn't stuck doing all of my normal stuff while he enjoyed nothing but free time. I know, I might just keep him. Anyway...he wanted to help but he didn't
fiction Scary Stories... “What I really want to do is write horror like Stephen King, or Dean Koontz, or Grady Hendrix. But I can never seem to capture that feeling of impending doom.” “I think it’s because you are too lighthearted. I think to write really good horror you have to be
