fiction The Affair... The affair started when I was 35 years old. I can tell you all of the reasons why it happened. I was feeling unappreciated at home. I was feeling unattractive in a body that had changed from giving birth multiple times. I was lonely in a house full of people.
fiction They Say... They say that Pandora was too curious and couldn’t do as Zeus told her and that’s why she opened the box unleashing all the world’s evils. They say that Eve was fooled by the serpent and that’s why she disobeyed God and ate the apple. They
rambling And Dusted... I mentioned the ad agency yesterday. I worked for them two times. The first as a bookkeeper and then we moved to Colorado Springs for a few years. When we moved back they rehired me as an account executive. I'm one of those employees that gets personally attached
rambling Money... Back in the way before times, before I was retired, before I was a stay at home mom whose kid didn't, before I was a massage therapist, before I was an advertising account executive, before all of that I was a bookkeeper. And one of the things I
rambling Honesty... I haven't written in a couple of days and I have like three ideas for blogs but instead I'm going to write a fairly short one to give you an honesty update. I feel very down today. Like energy is tanked. No motivation. Absolutely no desire
rambling Are You Real? I've written before about how frustrating it is to be someone who writes when you cannot reach someone through words. When someone is grieving and you cannot comfort them no matter what you say. When you know someone is about to make a terrible decision but there is
fiction The Not Bright Knight 2... The Not Bright Knight Part One It was a full three-day journey to get to the thicket of thorns. Though he could smell the roses on day two. That’s how many roses there were. How thickly they had grown around the old castle. At the end of day two
fiction The Not Bright Knight... Everyone said he wasn’t very smart. Well not everyone, his mother always said that it wasn’t that he wasn’t smart, it was that he saw the world differently. But honestly, that was probably just a mother’s way of saying he wasn’t very smart. But he
rambling Give Me a Break... It's been a whirlwind of shit the past three weeks. It's by design. They planned it that way. To overwhelm the systems. To flood the zone with shit. To keep throwing so much stuff at everyone that there is no way to keep up. To ignore
rambling Bully for You... It's a sad truth that often a child's first bully is their parent. Sometimes the parent thinks they are doing the right thing. Toughening up the kid so they won't have as many vulnerabilities in the real world. Or trying to fix the kid
rambling Spare Me... Just realized that would be a great title for a short story, might be a Spare Me (Fiction) sometime... ANYWAY... I'm reading a few newsletters right now. A variety pack of liberal voices to make me feel better about the world. Action items, news recaps, think pieces, fluffy
rambling Timing... If I had heard Personal Jesus before People are People I think I would have been a Depeche Mode fan in high school. As it was I wrote them off as Depressed Mode and barely tolerated them. As a weird aside, Just Can't Get Enough is one of
rambling Infection... In October of 2001 I was dying. I mean, okay, technically we are all always dying. But my death was a lot closer than I realized. I was actively dying. I've written about it before. I was going in to the grocery store and put my hand directly
rambling January Recap Normally I would write this on the last day of the month but I think I'm going to be too busy to write tomorrow so today it is. If it ends up I have time tomorrow then maybe I'll write some fiction, or work on the
fiction Time After Time... She crept closer to the crazy man on the corner. He was in the middle of a fiery speech. Not a lot of people were listening. Just a small handful. But they were listening closely. She could see reflected in their eyes what was to come. The power he would
rambling Present Tense... Sunday morning we were going to get up and go out to breakfast then go to the grocery store. I've talked before about how much I hate going to the grocery store. And, yes, I know hate is such a strong word. I hate it. And I hate
rambling Check Lists... When Brent was on sabbatical he wanted to help take care of the house so I wasn't stuck doing all of my normal stuff while he enjoyed nothing but free time. I know, I might just keep him. Anyway...he wanted to help but he didn't
fiction Scary Stories... “What I really want to do is write horror like Stephen King, or Dean Koontz, or Grady Hendrix. But I can never seem to capture that feeling of impending doom.” “I think it’s because you are too lighthearted. I think to write really good horror you have to be
rambling I Forgive You... Or not. I mentioned that part of my year long hold on to joy with both hands was using the daily positive thoughts book as a sort of devotional. I read their thought or quote, I think about it and then I write just a couple lines down about it.
fiction The Year of the Snake The problem with studying the ancient prophecies was the language. Nobody spoke those languages anymore. They had all fallen to time. They translated by tracking backwards from modern language to what they replaced to what they replaced to what they replaced to eventually the ancient language the prophecies were written
fiction On The List... "Oh yeah, I have to see that movie. She's on my list." "On your list?" "My free pass list." "Not following." "Your free pass list. The famous people that you have a free pass for, that you could totally
rambling Time Out... I've been warning everyone since the election that the first week was going to be horrific. That was all part of Project 2025, hit the ground running and wrecking. Get as many EOs signed as possible and as Steve Bannon puts it "flood the zone with shit&
rambling Check In... Did you do anything fun this week? That's a question I ask Katie every week when we talk on the phone. I do it for a few reasons. First off I don't want our entire conversation to be about work, health, and the weather. Another reason
rambling And So It Ends... Oh wait, that was supposed to be begins. And so it begins. Doesn't really feel that way right now. Last night the news leaked that one of his first Executive Orders was going to be stripping rights from trans people. Taking away the protections they have and forcing
rambling The Void... Not being on Facebook and sending out these posts via mail is sort of like shouting into the void. I told Brent on Friday that it was weird. I mean I can see that people are receiving the posts, which is better than when I was on Facebook and I
