Time Out...

I've been warning everyone since the election that the first week was going to be horrific. That was all part of Project 2025, hit the ground running and wrecking. Get as many EOs signed as possible and as Steve Bannon puts it "flood the zone with shit" and oh by the way, they had them written and ready to go because Project 2025 was ALWAYS the plan,

There is no way to process one wtf moment before the next hits. And the whole time there are these EO hits happening there are other actual tangible things happening and you might or might not even hear about them because it's all too much shit.

Right now entire government departments are being shut down. Right now people are being fired. Right now the only female head of an armed service has been fired. Right now the Trump administration is gathering lists of DEI hires to fire them. How do they know they are DEI hires? Well what color is their skin and do they have a penis? Starting with the non penised individuals as the firing of Commandant Admiral Linda Fagan shows.

Right now the January 6th rioters are buying guns. Ready to do his bidding no matter what it is.

And you add to all of that, all of the planned chaos, the extra levels of bonus chaos that just follows a Trump administration. Things like the head of a government advisory panel throwing a Nazi salute during inauguration celebrations. And then the mainstream media and the ADL (for fuck's sake) trying to convince you that you did not see what you so clearly saw. He's autistic. He's enthusiastic. The German newspapers had to block out the picture of his arm when they reported it because it's illegal in Germany to throw that salute. It's not illegal in Germany to be enthusiastic, or autistic.

And you have the Trumplicans freaking the fuck out over a minister actually being Christlike instead of preaching prosperity gospel bullshit like they've all come accustomed to. You all know I've railed and railed against this flood of performative religion that they've all clung to. That it has nothing to do with the book they say they follow. With the words of the prophet they claim to revere. But, man, when they are faced with someone who actually follows the love everyone part of the gospel they cannot handle it.

I hope we can all be as brave as Reverend Mariann Budde if given the chance. To live your compassion in the face of cruelty is bravery. And she did it. And just to make sure you understand all she did was ask him to show grace. He could have said no without raging at her in the middle of the night, but here we are.

But, here's the thing, all of that is going on and it's only Wednesday.

He was sworn in at noon on Monday.

Holy fuck.

I mean I knew it was going to be bad, but knowing it and living it are so very different from each other.

So I'm going to take a break from it all. Even trying to only do a light keeping up with what's happening has been too much. I have to wait for the dust to settle a little before I re-engage because right now all I'm doing is sitting in existential dread trying to figure out just exactly how far down the list I am. And if they will ever get to me because if they try to get to my daughter before me I will move right above her.

So yeah, it's weird. I wrote during the pandemic (The Pandemic Chronicles is what I think I settled on calling those blogs) because I knew it was an historic moment that I'd want to look back on and remember more clearly than my actual memory would allow. And I'll keep writing now, because it's what I do, but I'm not sure if there will be a time to look back on it. I don't know what will be left. I don't know how bad it will get. I just know it will be bad.

And as this week (TWO DAYS) has shown, even knowing it's going to be bad, it's much worse. And living it is different than knowing it.

And I'm not sure I'll live through it. For the first time in my life I don't feel like I will be living into my 80s, aiming for 100. It doesn't feel like it right now. And it's only been two days...

That doesn't change my directive to everyone, survive. Do what you can to survive. I will. I'm just not sure how this one ends.

So for me right now that's only checking on friends when I log on to BlueSky and letting my daily newsletters stack up a bit. I need a timeout.

That's the plan. And for the next few days these posts will be in that same vein. I just need a break. As much of one as I can create for myself anyway.

Survive.
Find Joy.
Do what it takes.