No, Thank You...

Last week was the week of "I'd rather not." I didn't work out, I didn't follow my normal eating pattern, I didn't write. I thought about it all, and then didn't.

I'd rather not, thanks.

Now there were reasons. I had dental work done last week on two different days that left my face sore. It wasn't until Friday that I really felt mostly okay again. And I did run a couple of times, I just didn't do any of my other workouts. Though the only reason why I ran was because the program I'm doing right now ends on August 20 and future me would have been pissed if past me messed that up for her. The eating was I was just hungry. I think the adrenaline from the jaw pain did that. But my normal food was NOT cutting it so I had a couple little snacks. Not much, but I'm not a big snacker so the fact that there were any was odd.

And the writing? I just didn't have the patience to sit down and put words on the screen for the most part. I thought of some things to write about, even worked out some openings and themes then thought...I'd rather not.

And it's all fine and good and sometimes life just goes like that, and if you have the ability to take a little break from your routines it's a good thing to do.

Except I'm so locked into things that track what I do. So I stepped on the scale on Friday and did my body scan and got the, "Hey, you lost a pound, which is great for a weight loss goal, but make sure you aren't sacrificing muscle." Yeah, a week off of lifting weights and I already lost a little muscle and that sucks.

And when I wrote the 'moving some characters around' bit for the Futures story yesterday when I went to tally it I had a moment of, 'really? I've only written four times all month? Wow.' So yeah, that's not good either.

I'd rather not, but can I get credit for doing what I didn't do anyway? No? Oh, fine.

So this week I'll work on rathering instead of rather notting. Though I did do a couple extra "big" chores last week to make up for not doing other stuff so that was good too...

And yeah, there is a part of my head that is like, "well, how about if we take all of July off?" which is the other problem with doing the rather not route. It's really easy to just stop doing all of the other stuff. The stuff that you know you need to do to maintain. Maintain your health, maintain your blood pressure, maintain your clean house, maintain your mental well being. You can rather not yourself right out of alignment and it's so much harder to get back into the habit.

So a week off is a good break. It's a reset. There were reasons. The jaw pain, the weird dreams throwing off my sleep, the ennui about the world as it is... but it's a new week and it's time to rather.

Back to eating better, doing my scheduled workouts, and putting the pixels on the screen.

I also feel like I should write about Lindsey Graham dying so...Yeah, Lindsey Graham died. Anyway....

I hope you all have a good week and you remember to rather more than you rather not unless you really need a week of rather not and then enjoy it to its fullest not possible.